Transitioning Together: One Couple’s Journey of Gender and Identity Discovery
- June 14, 2017 - 8:23am
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Sam Claflin
- June 14, 2017 - 6:40am
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After a breakout part in the Hunger Games saga, as dreamy tribute Finnick Odair, and now a starring role opposite Rachel Weisz in My Cousin Rachel, the odds certainly have been in Sam Claflin’s favor.
Considering his winning streak, we’re holding out hope that a Fifty Shades of Grey-style rendezvous between him and the Hemsworth brothers – his idea, mind you – could be the British actor’s next major franchise. Till that blessed day comes, check out what the affable Me Before You looker has to say about finding the right gay role, how people are responding to his recent Hollywood body-shaming criticism and French gay porn.
I love seeing a woman in power, but, man, you really get jerked around in My Cousin Rachel.
(Laughs) Haven’t we all been there? Haven’t we all been in love and kind of swept off, though usually warned by friends? But, of course, Philip is a bit of a loner and left to his own devices, really. Love is blind, and it makes you do crazy things. (Laughs)
Growing up, what was your introduction to the gay community?
I got involved in musical theater at a young age and so that was an immediate part of my life. I mean, the second you kind of step onto the stage and embrace the arts, it becomes a part of you. And the second you open yourself up to becoming an actor and performing and exploring this industry in whatever capacity – any form of art, really – there’s an openness, and it’s a really wonderful and incredibly rewarding industry to work in.
Plus, you’re British.
(Laughs) It does really upset me that people aren’t open-minded. People are still hung up on such a traditional old-world life, and people should be allowed to love who they want and be who they want and speak what they want and believe in what they want. I think it’s a shame that people are so narrow-minded that they believe their way is the only way. It’s sickening, in all honesty.
I don’t believe you have played a gay role, and I’m gonna let you give me one good reason why that hasn’t happened.
(Laughs) I actually got offered the role of a gay man in a TV series! But I didn’t think it was well enough written. I have auditioned for gay parts and not got them and desperately wanted them. It’s nothing I’m shying away from. It’s something I fully embrace. And, actually, I have done it in plays during drama school, but it just hasn’t worked yet for me. But I’d jump at the chance. I’d be happy to do anything that was sort of good enough for me to kind of get my feet stuck in, like a meaty role, or an opportunity to work with a great director no matter what the story and no matter what the character.
How aware are you of your LGBT fanbase?
In all honesty, I kind of don’t know (laughs). What I mean is, any fans, really, I’m just – it’s always a surprise that someone from whatever country or walk of life (is a fan), and it just sort of amazes me that people travel so far and spend so much time waiting. It’s very humbling. It’s something that you can never really get used to. I think you’d be not a nice person if you got used to it. It’s a consistent shock and one that I try to embrace as best I can. I’m always so grateful that people are interested and do go out of their way to watch my movies and follow my social media. I feel very grateful and lucky and thankful.
Recently, you acknowledged being body-shamed on movie sets, and I’m glad you spoke out against the issue as it relates to male actors in Hollywood. There are many men in the LGBT community who deal with body-related issues.
You know, I’m like any human being on this planet; I have my insecurities. And it fascinates me that bringing it up in an interview resonated with so many people, only because people seem surprised by the fact that happened. I’m like, are you kidding me? It’s been happening for decades and decades and decades. It’s just not talked about as much.
It’s amazing that it has resonated and hit home for so many people. That is, unfortunately, the harsh reality of the world that we live in. We sort of live our lives through Instagram and Twitter and these filters, and we give people an insight into our lives, but we’re so, so picky about what it is that we share. It’s so kind of manipulative and it’s warped our reality. In actuality, how many people are Hollywood-ready 24/7? I think for me as a father and as a friend and as a son and as a husband, I wanna be around my loved ones – I don’t wanna be spending every day under the sun working out.
Actress Niecy Nash recently told The Cut, “Hollywood is a business that will often require you to be something else. But at some point you have to say, I’m going to be 100 percent who I am and be OK with that.” Does that resonate with you? When was the point in your career you decided to be your authentic self?
Don’t get me wrong: I wholly agree with what she said. But at the same time, also, one of the reasons I got into acting was because of my insecurities, I suppose. I enjoy hiding behind different characters. My social media feed doesn’t really reflect exactly what I’m doing. I am active on social media, but it’s not quite my life. That, to me, is private. And when I work I love exploring and having those other characters be another side of me and sharing them with the world. In truth, I partly enjoy physically transforming myself for roles. Someone whose career I admire is Christian Bale; he mentally and emotionally goes to a different place every time, and he physically transforms himself and that’s always quite admirable.
At the same time, to stand out from the crowd, and in order to put your stamp on your work, to have that confidence in yourself somewhat, you have to believe in yourself that you can do it. I still feel like I’m finding my own feet, and every day I’m learning something new. There will definitely come a time when I’m 100 percent confident in myself, I hope. But I’m not quite there yet. As an actor, you kind of constantly panic about what people think, and we strive for perfection as actors, but the thing about being an actor is you’ll never be perfect.
Till then, we’ll always have you giving Josh Hutcherson CPR in The Hunger Games: Catching Fire. In fact, you had a real bromance there for a while, and you even said during an interview, “My mouth touching his was a beautiful moment.” When can we expect you to rekindle that fire?
You know, Josh is honestly one of my favorite people in the world. In all honesty, every time I go to Los Angeles – and I’ve only been there once since we finished Hunger Games, if you can believe it – I always hope that I can actually hang with him, and I’m sure if he’s in London he knows he could give me a call. But yeah, hopefully something can be rekindled – that’s the hope. He’s one of my favorites.
Hunger Games fans have some of the wildest imaginations – and some pretty fantastic gay ideas for you, Josh and Liam Hemsworth. What are your thoughts on the gay fan fiction that’s been written about you three?
Fan fiction is one of those things I wish I knew more about. Someone was telling me that Fifty Shades of Grey was based on Twilight fan fiction. I didn’t realize there was an underworld with these kind of amazingly imaginative ideas. I had no idea! But I love Liam as much as I love – in fact, I love Chris Hemsworth. I love the entire Hemsworth family. I say we get all of us involved and we do a Fifty Shades of Grey. We can make it reality.
In Me Before You, there’s a recurrent joke regarding French gay porn. Please tell me that was based on an anecdote from your own life.
(Laughs) I can’t say I’ve watched any French porn, actually. No, French porn is not something that I’ve seen before. However, now I’m intrigued!
Nico Tortorella
- June 12, 2017 - 10:47pm
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When it comes to Hollywood interviews, they’re “just so fucking straightforward and boring and everybody asks the same questions and it just gets redundant,” explains Nico Tortorella.
But our interview is different, he says.
“This is a straight-up Love Bomb episode,” acknowledges the 28-year-old actor, likening the conversational tone of our exchange to his love- and sexuality-centric podcast, now in its second season.
Though he touches on Menendez: Blood Brothers, his Lifetime movie about the infamous, parricidal siblings, and the upcoming season of TV Land’s Younger, Tortorella greatly expounds on his ever-evolving sexual identity, which has been an ongoing dialogue –internally and externally – since the actor revealed his label-less fluidity a year ago.
Now identifying as a “proud” bisexual, the Chicago-born dreamboat candidly discusses his desire for a polyamorous relationship, struggling with his sexuality as a kid before finding his queer “safe haven” within the theater and his current mission to normalize the abnormal.
Your sexual identity has really evolved over the last year; in 2016, you revealed you were label-less and "emotionally fluid." Then, you said you identify as bisexual.
I really like the term bisexual, and I fall somewhere under the umbrella that is bisexuality. I use the word bisexual because people have fought for so long for this word and the fact that it even exists in part of the LGBTI-etcetera is just a beautiful thing, and I’m not gonna be the person to take, like, fluidity or emotional fluidity or pansexual. I’m comfortable somewhere under the bisexual label, and I’m proud of it.
After you revealed that you’re open to dating men, did you hear from more gay male admirers?
I think it was actually more when I came into touch with my own sexuality – not in terms of who I prefer, but just me as a sexual being. I just became more aware of different energies.
When did you embrace your bisexuality?
Honestly, I think with the work that I’m doing on my podcast – really exploring sexuality as a human condition has educated me on many different people’s lives and the importance of labels and the unimportance of labels, for that matter. I’m in a really interesting place where I can talk about these things, but I’m really doing the work outside of myself on it.
When were you first aware that you had a gay following?
That’s an interesting question. I grew up in Chicago on stage, and I was constantly surrounded by a bunch of queer people. I really got along with them as a little kid and they really liked me too, so I don’t think there was one moment in my career, like, “Oh, now I see I can get along with these people.” I feel like it was always there. It was always in me; it was always part of me.
Recently, on your Instagram, you posted a pic of you sporting a shirt that says, “The Future Is Non-Binary.” What’s the story behind that shirt?
I bought it when I was shooting the Menendez movie up in Vancouver at this little thrift store. And yes, the future is non-binary, but I am a hardcore believer that so is the past. It has been forever, but for whatever reason, during these past 300 years, we have – and it probably has to do with religion – created the binary. And listen, nothing else exists. But finally, over the last 50 years there’s been this amazing breakthrough and clearly now it is the zeitgeist. I’m just so fascinated by that whole story.
Do you think people are too sexually rigid because society forces people to choose boxes to put themselves into? Is Hollywood influenced by this rigidity?
Look, in Hollywood these are the stories that are being told that everybody’s watching. And if you look at mainstream television, basically since it’s been created, there’s only been one story that’s been told. For the most part, it’s about the heteronormative, white family and that has been what’s been pushed in our faces for so long.
Finally, in the last 20, 30 years, things have really been changing. So the answer is yes, absolutely. It’s what we know; it’s what we’ve seen. Religiously, it is what we’ve been taught. It is everything. So, I think, yes, for so long people have been so oppressed in who they are because it doesn’t match what we’re being shown. Now, in the age of the internet and social media, there’s just so much being thrown down our throats constantly – pun intended (laughs) – and it’s like, it exists. Finally, it exists. Finally, people’s stories can be told. And my purpose in life is to extend these stories. I’m in love with people and I’m in love with their stories.
How do your views on sexuality influence the roles you choose as an actor? Are you looking for roles that challenge people’s views on sexuality?
Yeah, for sure. It’s a natural thing that happens once I put myself into the role, and those types of projects seem to be floating in my direction, which I’m all for. But I think as an actor it is my job to transform, and as obsessed as I am with the community and our stories and everything, I’m obsessed with people in all facets of life. It’s my job to become them. So, I really think that there’s always gonna be a whole slew of different characters I play.
Jacob Wells, your character on FOX’s serial-killer thriller The Following, enjoyed the company of both men and women. What was your read on his sexuality?
It’s funny – at that point in my life I had a boyfriend in L.A. and a girlfriend in N.Y. and it was pretty intensely life imitating art. Granted, we weren’t killing people (laughs), but I was living that and wasn’t comfortable with myself to the fullest extent probably because that was before I got sober. I was somewhat of a mess. But I was really navigating what that meant to have two lives, almost.
How have your Love Bomb guests enlightened you and your approach to your sexuality?
It really is an extension of who I am. My sexuality is a part of my story – it’s not all of my story – and to just normalize things that are deemed abnormal is really important. That’s my driving force at this point, so it affects everything that I do because it is me.
What topics do you seek to normalize during this second season?
In the second season, I have everyone from Courtney Love to Todrick Hall to Johnny Weir. Some really, really heavy episodes. And it’s everything from ageism to intersectionality. The most amazing thing about this show is that every single person who comes on has a completely different story, and nine times out of 10 the story that is told is different than the one that I thought I was going to hear. That’s where the real magic is. So, the spectrum is wide. It’s a universe, really.
What was it like sitting down with Courtney Love for The Love Bomb?
I love her so much, and I’m just gonna open with that. The second we locked eyes and had, like, an exchange, it was magical. We’re kindred souls, and we spent a lot of time in Vancouver (shooting Menendez together). We went to a native-led sweat lodge and were just in interesting parts of our lives at the time and really opened up to each other. So, when it was time to sit down with a microphone – I mean, I felt like we were having the Love Bomb conversation for months before we even had the real conversation in the studio. It was amazing. We had gotten so close by that point that there wasn’t a wall, and she has such an incredible story. I mean, she’s an icon, she’s royalty. People are really gonna see a softer, human side to her that I think is just so lovely.
Did she go thrift shopping with you?
We went shopping together a couple of times. She’s kind of like a gay man just in general, and I think she stands by that. I love that about her.
Let’s talk Younger. Based on last season, Liza and your character, Josh, seem to be broken up. During season four, will we see Josh rebound with a boyfriend, perhaps?
Yeah, I was just gonna say: The big secret of season four is Josh and Charles are gonna get together. (Laughs)
Who wouldn’t love that?
I mean, I would, let’s be honest. But no, there’s definitely not gonna be a boyfriend for Josh anytime soon – not that I know of, anyway! But I think after Liza he’s definitely exploring other options, and we really get to see a part of Josh’s life that’s lived outside of everybody else’s story in this fourth season, which is nice. And since it is a Darren Star show, Liza and Josh won’t be that far apart from each other for that long.
There’s been talk about you developing the The Love Bomb into a sketch-based TV series. What’s the status on that?
The idea has evolved into something. I left a development meeting this morning, which I can’t talk too much about. But it is definitely happening. It is moving at a really sensible pace, and it’s the one thing that I’m most excited about right now. Honestly, there’s great acting jobs in the future and different movies and TV shows even, but this is the soul.
What about it excites you?
It’s just an extension of the podcast, I think. Everything I learned on the podcast I wanna take to the next level. The way I see it in my head is, it’s some sort of segmented show where I’m talking to different people all over the world and learning and really diving into different cultures and people and sexuality. It’s a sexploration of love.
I hope that it’s been picked up by a cable network so you can push buttons and boundaries.
I’m gonna get naked at some point, I promise. (Laughs)
You really are challenging people’s feelings on sex and nakedness, aren’t you?
And love too! People are so fucking uptight about love. Love is supposed to be one specific way. You’re supposed to get married and have kids and that’s it – oh, and you’re probably supposed to marry the opposite sex. That just isn’t the case for so many fucking people.
Like all my gay friends who are in open relationships.
Even on that note: Why is it socially acceptable for two gay people to be in an open relationship, but if you hear about a straight couple in an open relationship people are like, “What? How does that work?” It doesn’t make sense to people.
Also, being somebody that dates both, how do I maneuver that conversation? Like, “Look, I want a boyfriend and a girlfriend at the same time – are you cool with that?” That’s even more confusing. But I’ve done it, and at the end of the day that’s who I am. I think I’m coming more and more into my own acceptance with polyamory and how I think that I can just be the best partner, if that is an option.
Have you always been as comfortable in your skin as you seem to be now?
I just wanna make it clear that it was not always easy for me. For sure, as a kid. I had a really bad stutter from 8 to 11. I wasn’t doing any theater, and sexuality in my household was one thing and one thing only. Anything heard or talked about or seen outside of it was gross in one way or another. I mean, big Italian family in Chicago. It didn’t exist anywhere in my family. I didn’t have any gay relatives. It just wasn’t anywhere.
Did you grow up Catholic?
Yes, yes. And the theater is a safe haven for queer people everywhere; it just is. That’s where they go to let the flags fly to transform, to create, to fall in love, and it was the best training that I had for acting, for sure, and just for human experience. And once I started seeing (gay people), I started getting more comfortable talking about it with my family. But the struggle was real. When I got sober, really, is when I decided that I wasn’t going to not be unapologetically myself, and I really just stepped into it.
Olivia Newton-John
- June 12, 2017 - 10:27pm
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“My dream is to see an end to cancer in my lifetime,” Olivia Newton-John told me at the end of April, just weeks before announcing that she’d been diagnosed with a recurrence of breast cancer that has spread to the sacrum bone in her back. The entertainer and Grease star first battled breast cancer in 1992, and lost her sister to brain cancer in 2013. She turned her personal loss into a universal catharsis on her October 2016 release, LIV ON, a collaborative album featuring singer-songwriters Beth Nielsen Chapman and Amy Sky.
Scheduled as a preview for her summer tour, which has since been postponed due to her health, Newton-John was in good spirits during our recent interview. Expectedly, the 68-year-old Aussie singer-actress exuded warmth and humility – and, as she reflected on queer-aligned moments in her career, the kind of charming laughter that’s made her one of the most approachable icons of our time.
“I love you guys,” Newton-John said, doting on her vast gay following. “You’re so loyal and lovely to me, and I appreciate you.”
I told her we honestly love her back, and we talked about her professional highs and personal passions – and how cancer, which she is now suddenly battling, is what she’s determined to help cure.
How would you compare yourself as an artist now versus when the world first met you in Grease and Xanadu?
I think I’ve been through so many different eras. With Grace and Gratitude (2006) and my Gaia (1994) albums, both were kind of mellow, so I have done this before. (It’s) usually on albums that have a theme to them, or when I’ve gone through some kind of crisis, which are those two albums and this one. This album was born out of me losing my sister. It was kind of inspired by that, and it was just important to me to make this record to help heal ourselves and help other people, because I think grief is not something that is talked about enough. It can lead to depression and anxiety, and people don’t even realize that they’re sad, and so they use other means to cover it up and they don’t talk about it because people make them feel they should be over it. There’s no time when there’s a loss. Loss is different for everybody. The people you’ve lost, they’ll always be in your life; they’ll always be there, in your heart.
What was your first introduction to the gay community? Did you know gay people growing up in the U.K.?
I probably did, but I probably didn’t decipher between them and anybody else. They were all just people. I had very loving parents who were very open, so I don’t think I ever thought about it that much. In the ’70s, I was very close to my hairdresser/makeup person who sadly died of AIDS and that was a terrible, terrible shock. In show business, there’s a very high percentage of gay people, so I’ve just always been around them.
If a gay fan stops you on the street, what project of yours are they most likely to gush over?
Sordid Lives. (Laughs) But it depends! It’s hard! Because there are many, many gay men and women, and they all love something different – they’re just people, so they all have different taste. But a lot of them have been touched by the message in Sordid Lives if they had or have a problem coming out to their family.
Where does playing a tattooed lesbian ex-con in that movie rank on your list of accomplishments?
(Laughs) It was fun! I did it for fun! Because I love (writer and director) Del Shores, who is my friend. He was actually my sister’s best friend – that’s how that came about, because of their friendship. If my sister hadn’t known Del, I wouldn’t have gone to the play and then I wouldn’t have said, “If you ever make this into a movie, think of me.” It was all kind of in fun, and then it happened.
Like many gay men of my generation, my introduction to you was the “Physical” video. I remember being surprised seeing two gay men walking out of the gym together, holding hands. Considering being gay was more taboo during that time, how do you reflect on that groundbreaking moment when it comes to gay inclusivity?
You know what, I don’t think I even realized it at the time. I just thought it was extremely funny. Whenever someone tells me that “Physical” is sexy, it makes me laugh because, to me, it’s just funny, you know? And the director really should take credit: Brian Grant, an Englishman who was great fun and did nearly all my videos at that time. Of course, the choreographer (Kenny Ortega) is gay, and all the boys were our friends. And it was hilarious! We just had a blast, and until you said that I hadn’t really thought of it as being groundbreaking. It seemed quite natural at the time. But I thought it was a very funny twist at the end.
The video came out in 1981, when there was still a lot of resistance regarding gay issues. Gay marriage wasn’t, obviously, legal.
That is true. I don’t even know if it was being talked about then. It was just part of my life.
As kitschy as it is, it still put gay people in many living rooms across the world.
Looking back now, I realize that. But I was so busy doing what I was doing – working. I didn’t reflect on things as much then. I was too busy doing them!
What’s it like when you perform “Physical” these days? Are you surrounded by shirtless, sweaty gay men?
Only in the audience if they choose to do that! (Laughs) But no, just my singers on stage come and jump around, and my guitarist comes forward and we do the guitar solo. We just have fun. I try to get the audience to have fun.
Do you strip it down? Do you do a cabaret version of the song?
No, no; we do it like the record. They want to hear it like it was. I always remember going to see a famous artist when I was a young girl, and when she did sing her songs, she changed them. I remember making a note: If I’m ever lucky enough to be that successful, I’m going to do them the way they were done. That’s what people wanna hear.
Which artist are you referring to?
Oh, it’s an artist and I don’t want to mention her name. Her whole show was not – it was just, I was anticipating all the hits and they didn’t come, and then when she did them she changed them up. That was just an important lesson for me.
It’s Pride season. As someone who’s been a mainstay on the Pride circuit, can you reflect on some of your most memorable experiences at Pride?
I have been a part of many Mardi Gras celebrations in Sydney, and I can never remember places, so you have to forgive me, but it was off New York and that was the night gay marriage was passed. It was incredibly exciting. Everybody was celebrating. So those are the two that stick out for me. And I’ve done other ones too with incredible crowds. A lot of fun. My gay fans are a lot of fun.
What was going through your mind when marriage equality became a reality that day?
I was just very happy for them and happy for the gay community that they have equality. I’ve always said this and I’ll say it again: Love is love. That’s all it is.
You were one of the first stars to speak out on marriage equality in Australia. How are you feeling about the fact that it’s still not a reality there?
It’s ridiculous. I hope a change is made. And it is really silly and it needs to change, and I hope it does. I don’t get involved politically, really, but I just think this issue is obvious – it’s ridiculous. If people love each other, they should be able to form a partnership and that’s that.
It seems so simple when you put it like that.
It is simple.
I came across a video of you acknowledging lesbian rumors that were circulating about you in the ’80s. I had no idea people ever thought you were a lesbian.
Yeah, I remember that. It was very odd. I couldn’t figure out why, but it didn’t do me any harm, obviously. (Laughs)
Actually, I think it might’ve benefited you.
I think it was probably a good rumor! It was a nice rumor, not a mean rumor.
Do mean rumors about Olivia Newton-John actually exist?
I’m sure there have been some! I try not to tune in to negativity. I tune that stuff out, so I don’t know.
What is left for you to accomplish?
Everything now is icing on the cake. I thought I was gonna retire in 2000, and here I am. I’m still going. And doing the Sydney Olympics (in 2000) was like, “Wow, nothing can be better than this.” Then I built my hospital (Olivia Newton-John Cancer Wellness & Research Centre in Melbourne, Australia, where she will receive treatments for her new cancer diagnosis) and I think that was probably the greatest achievement in my life, to have helped raise the money to build this amazing cancer center that’s helping so many people. And to have Gaia, my wellness retreat – that is also helping to heal people.
So, I feel very grateful for all that I have achieved. The wonderful thing about these achievements is that it’s giving back to people – it’s not just about me. It’s helping other people move forward in their lives, for their future, which is much more important.
More important than...?
Than fame. It’s a different kind of fame; it’s something that’s gonna help people’s lives and quality of life. The cancer center and wellness program are my babies, and I really care deeply for cancer patients, having gone through it myself. Now, we have an amazing research center at my cancer center and we just did some groundbreaking research that was published in Australia, so we’re doing amazing things there. My dream is to see an end to cancer in my lifetime and that the hospital becomes a wellness center, just focusing on wellness – that’s my dream.
John Waters
- June 12, 2017 - 8:07pm
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Has there ever been a better prank call than the one in Serial Mom?
The wicked bit features Kathleen Turner as Beverly Sutphin harassing her parking-spot-stealing neighbor, Dottie Hinkle (Mink Stole): “Is this the Cocksucker residence? Isn’t this 4215 Pussy Way?”
In 1994, if you came looking for a raunchy, hard-R John Waters romp that challenged the mainstream paradigm while concurrently being mainstream (and while also taking the piss out of those who wear white after Labor Day), you came to the right place. Starring Turner, as well as Waters’ usual suspects (Stole and Ricki Lake), Serial Mom was the subversive auteur’s biggest budgeted, most Hollywood-oriented film. Even at his most mainstream, Waters left his deliciously screwy smirk all over the film’s obscene plot, which centered on a seemingly everyday mom with a filthy mouth and a fondness for killing the morally inept. Get in the way of her birdwatching? Scissor attack! Cheating on her daughter? Fireplace poker through the back!
But the legendary mischief of that prank-call scene wasn’t merely Waters’ bawdy imagination at work – it was shaped by actual calls he’d made years before, says the director during a conversation timed to the release of Shout! Factory’s new Serial Mom: Collector’s Edition, the film’s Blu-ray debut.
As shit-stirrers of the early ’70s, Waters and Mary Vivian Pearce, his friend and a star in many of his wild capers, including 1972’s Pink Flamingos and Serial Mom, grew up babysitting together. “We would call and torture people!” Waters says, in stitches. “We’d make prank calls, then the operator would call and cut the phone off. We used to call movie theaters all the time and say, ‘What’s playing?’ And they’d say, What’s the Matter with Helen? And we’d say, ‘I don’t know – she sick?!’ And for You Never Promised Me a Rose Garden, we’d say, ‘Yes, you did! You said I could have one last week!’ We would just torture people! So that’s where that came from. A little bit of truth.”
Fortunately, not all of Serial Mom was baked in truth – for instance, the killings, though some especially gullible watchers still believe Beverly Sutphin and her absurd murders actually happened (“They still say to me, ‘Where is she today?’”). Waters did, however, study the subject of homicide in gory, real-life depth, sitting in on famous trials and obsessing over true-crime stories that would help build the basis for the black comedy and its murderous-mom debauchery. Elements of his own upbringing had an influence here, as well. Take that brilliantly twisted Serial Mom sequence during which an elderly lady bops along to Annie and then gets bludgeoned to death by Beverly’s weapon of choice: a leg of lamb.
“That my mom always made a really good leg of lamb,” he says, was his direct muse, but subconsciously he was also channeling Roald Dahl’s short story Lamb to the Slaughter, adapted in 1953 for Alfred Hitchcock Presents. In the episode, a housewife kills her husband with a frozen lamb leg.
“I watched that show all the time, and I remember that show later when people tell me,” he says, “but I didn’t consciously remember that when I was writing it. I wrote it because my mom always made a great leg of lamb. It had the right kind of bone.”
So right, in fact, that, “I still have the rubber prop leg of lamb that she killed with sitting on my desk in Baltimore.”
When the filmmaker leads live commentaries of the film around the country, he says new generations of Waters enthusiasts are just as tickled by the lamb and prank-call scenes as they were upon the film’s initial premiere, nearly two decades ago. “I’m really proud that all my movies still seem to play fine with audiences, even young audiences that weren’t even born when I made these movies!” he says. “That’s the ultimate test to me. People still laugh and they don’t feel like it’s old hat or ‘I’ve seen this before,’ so I’m always encouraged when I have a young audience. That’s the only thing you can’t buy, the one thing you can’t fake.”
Though it was distributed in wide release, Serial Mom grossed a disappointing $7.82 million domestically, “but still, I was used to that,” says the director about its box-office performance. Its earnings, though modest, don’t seem to reflect the fanbase the film has amassed in the years following its lackluster big-screen rollout, as fans have pressed Waters to deliver more mommy murders. Though he’s written a book sequel to his Divine-starring Pink Flamingos, in addition to three developed but untouched sequels to Hairspray, it would be “kind of ballsy to be talking about a sequel to a movie that didn’t do well. I like that idea, but it’s hard to get meetings,” Waters explains.
He has the pitch in his back pocket: It’s a TV show, and Beverly would kill for politically correct purposes on a monthly basis. Imagine Beverly alive and kickin’ and killin’ in Trump’s America. “There are so many reasons that she would have to kill,” he says, based on the current sociopolitical climate.
“I still talk about it in interviews. Who knows – maybe this will make it happen. You never know. Did I ever think Multiple Maniacs would come out and get the best reviews? No! Did I ever think I would give a commencement speech that’s now a book that just came out called Make Trouble? No!
“Things you think are gonna work, don’t. Things you don’t ever think are gonna be big, are. You just never know. You keep telling stories and some strike a nerve and some don’t, and some don’t until way later.”
If you were a curious-about-everything gay boy coming into his own in the ’90s, odds are Serial Mom hit the pre-pubescent spot. I tell Waters the film was my introduction to his filmography. “I’m glad that you saw Serial Mom first and it sucked you in!” he says, laughing mischievously.
Though Waters’ early career followers were almost exclusively the queerest of queers – you’d have to be broad-minded to watch Divine partake in buttplay with a rosary, a scene from Multiple Maniacs – films such as Hairspray and Crybaby, and then Serial Mom, courted a new wave of shameless rebels. Waters’ mom thought Serial Mom was his best movie, and Waters agrees. Even Boy George got such a kick out of the comedy that he recited “cocksucker residence” on his own voicemail, which “really did make me laugh,” says Waters, upon discovering the message after calling the pop icon.
“All movies, to be a success, have to appeal to a wider audience than just a gay audience,” Waters says. “I’m not a separatist. I believe everybody should hang around together. My audiences – I always want the people who have a good sense of humor. I don’t care what they do with their vaginas or their noses or their assholes or their mouths. I don’t care as long as they can do one thing with their mouth – laugh!”
Priyanka Chopra
- June 12, 2017 - 7:32pm
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Priyanka Chopra has your back.
Though India’s government still criminalizes homosexuality, Chopra – global icon, star of ABC’s gay-inclusive Quantico and one of Time magazine’s 100 most influential people of 2016 (she has nearly 18 million Twitter followers, more than Beyoncé) – is standing up for LGBT people everywhere. The actress-model-producer candidly affirms her support for the community during our recent call, from Miami, where Chopra, 34, speaks passionately about issues affecting her queer friends and fans – including whether Baywatch co-star Zac Efron’s abs are real.
Have you done gay press in India?
Yes. I have because I am very pro-LGBT community and pro-choice, and I think that’s the conversation that exists all around the world.
What was your introduction to the gay community?
I was in high school in America when I was 12 years old and one of my best friends – I used to borrow his shoes! He used to dress in drag. In fact, I remember wearing his shoes to prom!
Wait, you were wearing his shoes?
Yeah, we were the same size! To me, there wasn’t a difference. You never thought, “OK, this makes it different.” He was just my friend and he had the best shoes. Shoes are expensive! And he always had the best ones!
You once said you’d been propositioned by lesbians, so you obviously have a gay following. When were you first aware of your LGBT following?
I think when… when I was propositioned! (Laughs) (It was at) a nightclub after a couple of years of being an actress. It was extremely flattering, for sure. And you know, honestly, I believe that everyone has choices about their sexuality and who they are, more than anything else. I’m not judgmental about it at all, and I think it’s actually amazing.
Because India deems homosexuality illegal, have you ever had any hesitation speaking openly about LGBT issues?
I mean, not really. I don’t. I’m a very opinionated girl, and I was raised to be that way, so I’m not afraid and won’t shy away from what I believe in. I always encourage everyone who likes my work or likes me to be the same way. The world is such a small place today, and we all have to understand that if we don’t stand by each other, then we’re only creating divisions in the world. That’s what I stand for everywhere, especially for the LGBT community. We’re just people who want to be the best versions of ourselves.
Can you say that you are pro-gay in India and not receive flak for your progressive views?
I would, and I may or may not. Wherever in the world you go – I don’t think it’s just something that happens in India – you would get flak for it. But it’s something I believe in, and I stand by whatever I say.
Were you propositioned at a gay nightclub?
It was in Indonesia, actually. In Bali. And it wasn’t a gay nightclub. It was just a nightclub, and this girl was a big fan and she was just super flattering, and I didn’t know what to say. I just said, “I have a boyfriend!” (Laughs) Whether it was a girl or a boy, I think that’s the best way to handle a situation like that – if you’re not interested, that is!
Could you talk about the changing gayness of Bollywood over the years?
Modern-day Indian films are extremely accepting of different kinds of genres, whether it’s the LGBT community or the storytelling, which is out of the box. We’re at a place where we’re just telling really great stories about so many different things, and the LGBT community is a big part of that.
As someone who’s involved with regional cinema via your own India-based production house, Purple Pebble Pictures, do you plan on producing stories related to the LGBT community?
Yes. I don’t think that’s the way I look at storytelling, anyway. You don’t pick up a subject or something to talk about and then make a movie. The story has to lend itself to that. But I’m definitely somebody who would be open to making a film about the LGBT community, completely, if the story lends itself to it.
Just because there are gay characters doesn’t mean the plot needs to be about them being gay.
My TV show, Quantico, has so many incredible very strong gay characters, and that is a part of diversity.
It’s about treating gay people as just people.
Exactly. And not labels.
Regarding Baywatch: I feel so bad for you. Having to work alongside two of the world’s studliest studs – Zac and Dwayne – must’ve been hard.
(Laughs) Actually, it was really easy! And, yes, there is Dwayne and, yes, there is Zac, but if you look at the Baywatch babes, we compensate well.
After working with a shirtless Zac Efron, do you better understand the infatuation gay men have with him?
I guess I do understand the infatuation, definitely, that everybody has with Zac. I have a lot of friends who are fans of him and asked me to find out about the situation with his abs: “Are they real or not?” And I can vouch for the fact that they’re real. We spent a lot of time doing scenes and I was like, “Wait a minute?” Honestly, all jokes aside, it takes an incredible amount of discipline, which both Zac and Dwayne have, when it comes their training and their working out. It’s amazing to see.
Tell me about your feminist line in the movie when Zac calls you “crazy” and you tell him, “If I were a man, you’d call me driven.”
I loved that. Playing Victoria was one of my favorite things. She’s a woman in a man’s world, and she’s ambitious and driven and there’s nothing wrong with that. That is one of my favorite lines.
Can you relate to her and her drive?
I have to say, Victoria is a lot more evil than me, for sure. (Laughs) But ambition is a really great thing for young people and for people in general. It gives you goals and then you become whoever you wanna be, and if you don’t have that drive, you’ll never find the best version of you, so, yes, I definitely think I’m similar.
Dostana, about two straight men who pretend they’re gay to win your love, was called “rebellious” upon its release in 2008 because of its queer content. Did you make it as a pro-gay statement?
Well, there needs to be conversations. And entertainment, especially pop culture, is such a great way to make the conversation go forward. Dostana was extremely progressive, and our producer is one of the biggest producers in India and he’s an openly gay man who just had two babies. Those are conversations that take the LGBT community forward. Him making the film and having the conversation and taking that forward was a big step in that direction.
You’re referring to Karan Johar, I believe, who recently wrote in his autobiography, “(I) will not say the three words that possibly everybody knows about me,” because “I live in a country where I could possibly be jailed for saying this.” What did you make of his approach to coming out?
I guess, culturally, it’s very hard to do. It’s something that people face all over the world, but it gets really difficult when you have that kind of resistance. It can get really ugly. And for him to do it even in the way he did, it was extremely brave. He’s always been someone who openly talks about it on his TV show (Koffee with Karan) and he’s really an icon for the LGBT community, and his struggles are real.
Generally, and not just with Karan, (coming out) is a hard thing to deal with, especially in countries where it’s become hard to be who you are. The more and more I travel around the world, I see that it’s something that you see in any country. There is such a resistance to people just being themselves, and, as humanity, we need to deconstruct it to the point where people can make their own choices and that’s when we’ll be in a progressive society.
Aids Walk Las Vegas
- June 11, 2017 - 3:40am
More than 5,500 walkers, family, friends, and pets poured into Town Square Las Vegas in support of Aid for AIDS of Nevada’s (AFAN) 27th annual AIDS Walk Las Vegas, raising more than $300,000 to benefit those living with or affected by HIV/AIDS.
Longtime AFAN supporters Penn & Teller served as grand marshals for their 16th consecutive year, encouraging individual walkers to fundraise a minimum amount of $250, matched dollar for dollar by the duo with their Penn & Teller Challenge.
Assemblyman Nelson Araujo and U.S. Representative Ruben Kihuen, along with other Nevada government officials, honored AFAN with proclamations for their unyielding commitment to making Nevada AIDS-free.
“We are incredibly thankful year after year for the strong show of support and dedication the community has for AIDS Walk Las Vegas,” said AFAN Executive Director Antioco Carillo. “As our largest fundraiser of the year, this event helps fund vital services for individuals with HIV/AIDS. Everyone here today deserves a round of applause for their commitment to making Nevada AIDS-free. “
The community continues to show strong support of AIDS Walk Las Vegas through team fundraising and sponsorships.
How to Choose the Best Sunscreen
- June 8, 2017 - 3:28am
There’s no shortage of sunscreen options in the skin care aisle, but which are the best for your body? Bart Zoni, co-founder of Clinical Skincare Company, shares his expertise on what to look for when choosing your skin’s best defense.
1. Pay Attention to Active Ingredients
We’ve been conditioned to look at the SPF on our sunscreen to determine how much protection we want or think we need, but the active ingredients in a formula are just as important, Zoni says. The vast majority of skin health professionals rely on titanium dioxide and zinc oxide – the two mineral actives available in the United States – instead of chemical filters. A quick check of the drug facts on the back of your bottle will list what’s inside.
2. Double Down on the Protection
When browsing sunscreen brands to put in your beach bag, two words are critical: Broad Spectrum. “These SPF products are able to block both UVA and UVB radiation, providing you with the best protection possible,” explains Zoni.
After showering, moisturize with Cetaphil Men Daily Face Lotion SPF 15 for regular protection, and up the ante with Skin Cancer Foundation-recommended EltaMD UV Clear Broad Spectrum SPF 46 for prolonged exposure.
3. Boost Your Natural Defenses
Everything else we put in and on our body is fortified, so why not sunscreen? SPF plus antioxidants are the perfect combo for ultimate before and after defense.
“The sun puts a lot of stress on the skin and antioxidants help prevent and repair visible sun damage,” Zoni says. “Combining them with your SPF makes total sense. Look for ingredients like Vitamin C, green tea extract, ubiquinone, or Vitamin E.”
Amy Schumer and Goldie Hawn
- May 15, 2017 - 5:38pm
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“We’re serious bitches too,” says Amy Schumer, nearly in tears. The comic firecracker is seated next to national gay-loved treasure Goldie Hawn, and the screen icon has just made a touching revelation: She used to comfort men dying of AIDS.
Perhaps that isn’t the kind of heartwarming reveal you’d expect during a sit-down for their action-comedy, Snatched, but as this onscreen mom-daughter duo joke about a potential gay-themed sequel (the ladies already have several queer-centric working titles; for Schumer, the joke writes itself), it’s clear nothing is off topic. They’re just happy to be here speaking to gay press, which has Schumer “very elated.”
“This will be our favorite interview of the day,” the 35-year-old raves from a hotel bungalow in Santa Monica. Beaming, Hawn shares her enthusiasm: “It will be!”
Snatched is Hawn’s first movie since 2002’s The Banger Sisters. But donning a signature frilly, shoulder-less, royal blue dress, it seems like just yesterday the 71-year-old’s frothy charm enraptured gay audiences on Laugh-In in the late ’60s, and later, in 1996’s First Wives Club and, of course, Death Becomes Her, in 1992.
“It’s fun doing press with her,” says Schumer, as Hawn, en route, recharges at the hotel’s nearby buffet line before breezing in. “It’s also relaxing, because she’s like a mom – you’ll ask her something, and you’ll be looking for a sound bite and then we’re out of time and I’m like, ‘OK, cool. Good job.’”
Before being snatched up for their next interview, Hawn and Schumer got real about their respective gay followings, how Hawn thinks Schumer still has time to pursue a lesbian relationship and their commitment to “fight to the death” for LGBT people.
Why has it been important to you both to advocate for the LGBT community, especially now, in this political climate?
Schumer: I can’t remember a time I didn’t. When I was in high school, people weren’t really out yet. I think it’s more now. It was a different time even then, but it was never a question. It was never a choice. It was, “Yeah, of course.”
Hawn: Being an ally for LGBT people and an ally for all people, transgender or whatever – to me, that’s a human story. I feel there are injustices in the world that I’ll stand up for, and I think that it’s important to realize that the world is filled with these kinds of issues. We’re dealing with intolerance and what’s going on with deportation and what’s happening with Mexicans and what’s happening with people who are Muslim. There are so many things, and if you can’t stand up for it, then you’re not standing up for humankind. Because that’s who we are. We all have skin and blood, and we’re all made of the same things. I have a note that I will probably needlepoint one day: “Love knows no gender.” And it doesn’t. Love is something in the heart and in the mind, so why would you chastise anyone for that? And this is something that I feel very strongly about.
Schumer: Also, we’re both people who will stand up to the death for our gay friends and gay people and what’s going on in Chechnya and the fear of what will happen in the coming years. We’ll be there to fight alongside our gay friends.
Hawn: You know what I used to do? This is interesting. When we went through the AIDS period, it was a very scary time, and I would go visit guys and I’d get in bed with them just to be there with them.
Schumer: Come on, think about that.
Hawn: Oh, I just remember.
Schumer: Aw, Goldie. And great – now we’re all crying.
Amy, on behalf of gays everywhere, thank you for being instrumental in bringing Goldie back to the big screen.
Hawn: Awwww!
Schumer: You’re welcome!
Hawn: Oh my god, so sweet.
You were missed, Goldie.
Schumer: Dude, yeah. I completely agree, and I feel the same way. I just stayed on her, and we did it together.
Hawn: You were the one, I gotta tell you. It really was Amy.
When in your career did you two first know you had a big gay following?
Hawn: Gosh, honey, this is a long time ago. I think when I first came on – it started then. The early days. There wasn’t a moment in my career, never a moment. I was a dancer, and I grew up and that’s who I was. There was no issue. I mean, I had a tremendous amount of gay friends, so my whole life was basically like that while dancing. So, I never noticed who was gay or who was straight. For me, it was like that.
Now, later on, you started seeing more, maybe excitement, around it. But I’ll tell you, I don’t pay much attention. You can’t pay too much attention to those things and live a full life. It can’t be just about that. So, I don’t pay a lot of attention to things. I have a little bit of blinders on.
Schumer: I’ve been on the road for 15 years. What I would do after shows is go dance at gay bars, and I started noticing, because even the worst towns have a fun gay bar, people being like, “We were at the show.” I remember it was a realization for me going on the road. And I’ve had a bunch of gay couples say, “I wanna propose at your show,” and I get really psyched! Ha! You’re like, “Yes!” Not because, “Oh, good, that’s a market”; it’s like, that’s who you want to love you. I feel really grateful and lucky, and the love is mutual.
Hawn: A really good friend of mine, who is gay, married her girlfriend and they wanted to get married in my house. All our friends were there, and it was the most beautiful thing. It was just so emotional, and (my son) Oliver, who is 40 now – at that time he was about 20-something – basically went, “Mom, I want a gay marriage!” Ha! I was like, “I know! It’s so beautiful.”
Schumer: I’m always walking around in every town I’m in and I’ll find a park, and there are always people having their engagement pictures. I’m like, “Can I be in this photo?” I want in on the fun!
As someone who used to dance in gay bars, were your dance moves in Snatched gay-inspired? And how about Goldie’s?
Schumer: Oh, definitely. Also, just to watch Goldie dance is one of the great joys of my life. Honestly, to see that live.
Hawn: Ha!
Goldie, with your dance scenes in this movie, were you having flashbacks to your iconic dancing in First Wives Club at that lesbian bar?
Hawn: Oh, right! I danced in a lot of movies! It’s weird but it happened and it’s good.
Schumer: To have you not dance in a movie is a crime.
Both of you have experience in a lesbian bar. Goldie in First Wives Club, and Amy, you were a bartender at one before your comedy career took off. Is this maybe a potential jumping-off point for a second movie starring both of you?
Schumer: There’s our sequel: The Real Snatched.
Hawn: Ha! Snatched Unhinged! Snatched Uncensored!
Schumer: And Uncut!
How do you think this film may resonate with gay people and the relationships they do or don’t have with their parents?
Schumer: That’s a good question.
Hawn: Very good question.
Schumer: I definitely haven’t thought about how different sort of lifestyles could experience it because it does feel pretty universal, but I get it. I think it really will bring together people who have had a struggle with a parent – that idea of, we’re both doing the best we can.
As kids, you’re just so, “Oh, my mom just loves me.” We all take our parents for granted, and the goal is to be able to accept that they just love the shit out of me and did the best they could. And maybe it wasn’t enough, but (it’s important) to find peace for yourself in that and to get rid of some of the anger. I hope this movie brings kids and parents together – I think it will.
Hawn: The other thing you’re dealing with is a very strong rejection and it is arguably very, very important to find forgiveness. This movie may or may not touch a little on that, but we’re talking about a relationship between a mother and a daughter. It's kind of like a fraught relationship, and we do get into it. I’d like the idea that perhaps whether you’re gay or not that you’re able to go in and say, “Maybe I should call my dad, maybe I’m gonna call my mom.”
One of the realities is that if you don’t make peace, they’re gonna die one day, and it’s really important to know that, because moms and dads don’t last forever. If you’ve got unfinished business, we need to face that, and that’s not easy. And a lot of parents are stoic and won’t give, and if they don’t give it’s a very sad story, because you know why? Every child wants to love their mother and their father. Love is the most important thing, and when they feel rejected and unloved that hole can never be filled by anyone else.
Amy, in the movie, you tell your brother that he’s “so gay for mom.”
Schumer: I wondered what the experience would be of that line.
Who are you gay for in your lives?
Schumer: I’m gay for so many people that I think I may be just gay.
Hawn: Ha!
Schumer: I love my girlfriends so much that I’ve kissed girls – but I’ve never had, like, a lesbian experience. Not yet. But I’m sure. The life is young.
Hawn: I was gonna say: There’s a lot of time!
Schumer: There’s time left. But you know how you just think your friends are so beautiful, and (with) my really good girlfriends, over the years I’ve had confusing feelings because I just love them so much. I just think they’re so beautiful, so I’m gay for my friends.
Hawn: My best girlfriend is gay… and my other girlfriend probably could’ve been! She wore man shoes all the time, and I was always the one in little twinkle shoes. She’d go out with me and I’d say, “Now are you gonna wear your suit and your man shoes because we’re quite a couple!” Ha! But my best girlfriend is gay, and this is the girl I laugh with like crazy. And my nephew!
Naturally, Goldie, everyone around you is gay, and with a résumé that includes First Wives Club and Death Becomes Her, I’d expect nothing less. Which of those films do you think earned you the most gay cred?
Hawn: That’s really interesting. Probably First Wives Club. But Death Becomes Her was pretty gay.
Did you know Death Becomes Her would eventually become a gay cult film?
Hawn: Not at all! I just thought that it was gonna be a cult film forever because it’s all about staying alive and staying young forever, and (director) Bob Zemeckis was way ahead of his time. So, for me, it was just a general commentary on where we’re going, because everyone wants to stay young and no one wants to get old and what is the elixir and what can I drink?
When did you realize that it was adored by gay audiences?
Hawn: I never thought of it! But I love that.
Schumer: I hope this becomes a gay cult movie.
Hawn: That would be awesome!
I mean, basically anything that Goldie touches, right?
Hawn: Well, my god, that’s quite a compliment.
Schumer: We should all be so lucky!
Lea Michelle
- May 7, 2017 - 8:17am
Lea Michele knows exactly where her life is headed. “It’s just gonna be me in bed with gay people and I’m gonna be alone forever like Cher,” the powerhouse playfully foretells, “and that’s totally fine by me.” If you're like Michele – theater kid-turned-Broadway queen, and then, with TV’s Glee and Scream Queens, the apple of Ryan Murphy’s eye – it's a natural fit. And so be it. “That’s just the story of my fuckin’ life, all right.”
Not the whole story, though. The rest involves brainstorming the 30-year-old singer’s “dream girl” make-out sessions, her new bittersweet song remembering her relationship with late Glee co-star Cory Monteith, and one topic she prefers not to discuss (needless to say, not the gays).
I loved that you were drinking red wine while singing The Human League’s “Don’t You Want Me” when you reunited with your Glee co-star Darren Criss recently.
Listen, that’s just a typical night for me, let me tell you! I mean, we just wanted it to be casual, like a chill time, us hanging out. We didn’t want it to feel too performed. We just wanted it to be a little peek of what Darren and I do for fun together.
How much wine did you enjoy during the recording of your new album, Places?
(Laughs) No wine during the recording of Places, I’ll tell you that. It was too vocally challenging, so none in the recording studio!
This album is more intimate than your debut. You take it down a few notches, and it sounds like you’ve realized that you don’t need to be the pop artist that some people might think you should be.
Thank you. Can you do all of my press for me and tell everyone that? (Laughs)
Ha! Sure, I’m for hire. How did you apply what you’ve learned about yourself as a recording artist to Places?
I learned a lot from my first album (2014’s Louder). I definitely think a lot of things contributed to that album: I took a lot of people’s opinions into play, as well as just being a lover of pop music myself and also working on Glee at the same time, so I had a lot of factors kind of coming at me.
I worked on this new record over the past three years, and I really just took the time to be quiet and think about myself, and I was finished with Glee, so I was no longer in the recording studio for that. I just took the time to figure out really, truly who I am as an artist, what kind of music I want to make, and at the end of the day, I’m from Broadway, I’m a theatrical singer, there’s no way around that.
When I did this record, no one told me to change anything; no one told me to sound any different. And this is it, this is me. It’s a true representation of who I am, and all I can hope is that people like it. If they don’t, that’s OK for me now at this point in my life. You know, I’m 30 years old, and I know I can sing. I just hope that people like it and that’s all you can really do. At a certain point, you just have to let it go into the universe.
Did you feel differently making your first album? Did you feel like people were trying to put you in a box?
No, I just think that I was sort of influenced a little bit more personally. I was putting myself into a box! No one was really making me do anything – I was the one that was saying, “I want a song that sounds like Katy Perry” and “I want this song to sound like Kelly Clarkson.” But in the recording studio this time, I was like, “No. It can’t sound like anyone but me.”
“Hey You” is really beautiful and really haunting. It gives me the same feelings I got when I heard “If You Say So,” from your debut.
Well, that’s because it’s part two of “If You Say So.”
Can you tell me about “Hey You”? What kind of place were you in when you wrote it?
I wasn’t originally thinking of including that on the album. It’s sort of a sensitive subject for me that’s hard to talk about, and I didn’t want anything on the record that I couldn’t talk about. But it just felt so beautiful. It wasn’t about loss, it wasn’t about sadness. It was really about joy and love. I love it so much, and I really feel it represents who I am and everything that I’ve been through in my life. I don’t talk much more beyond that. When you come to my concert, that’s really when I open up and dive into what these songs personally mean to me. At the end of the day, the song is pretty specific, and people are gonna make of it what they want, but I wanted to make a song about loss that wasn’t necessarily sad. I wanted to show this beautiful moment and there’s a little bit more of a deeper story that goes with it that I talk about in my concert.
Has your BFF Jonathan Groff heard the album? What’s his favorite song?
Duh! He’s heard everything. He loves the album. I think he really loves “Anything’s Possible.” We were having a bunch of sleepovers, and he stayed with me in L.A. for a little while, and I just love him so much. I love having him with me. He’s my best friend in the whole world, and he supports me so much. I just think people get soulmates in their life and he’s my soulmate.
Your gay following obviously extends beyond Jonathan – when was the first time in your career that you knew you had a gay following?
(Laughs) I grew up in the gay community. I grew up on Broadway. For me, it’s just a part of who I am, and I feel so lucky to have been around the LGBT community for so long, and then to be on Broadway and have fans outside of the theater or working with incredible people. Then going onto Glee – that show was so important, and playing a young girl who was raised by two gay men in Ohio of all places, I feel really lucky to have been a part of important projects that talk about important things. To have been a part of the gay community and around it for so many years, it’s just really helped me develop who I am today. I love my following, and I love all of my fans, gay or straight. But you know, gotta give it up for my gays.
How has the gay community influenced you to become who you are?
Growing up on Broadway there was always this sense of being who you are – you just have to be true to yourself and be who you are, and I saw it. I saw people living their true lives and being their true selves, and for me that was such an incredible vibe to be around growing up. It really did develop me, and you have to really have a strong backbone and you have to have strength – and it comes with a lot of difficulties – and it was such an incredible way to grow up. Honestly, I wouldn’t change it for the world.
Will you finally get the lesbian role we’ve been waiting for you to get on this forthcoming ABC comedy that you’re about to be a part of?
(Laughs) Unfortunately, I am not a lesbian; however, I may get to make out with Brandon Micheal Hall, and I don’t know if you know what that boy looks like, but he’s so friggin’ cute. So, I am very excited about that. I wanted to go on Looking and I wanted to be a lesbian!
We’ll just have to live vicariously through your TV make-out session with Brandon now.
Yeah, sorry, it’s really working for me. (Laughs) But we have to think about who my dream girl make-out sessions would be!
Shall we ponder that?
You know what’s funny, because I was just talking to Brad Goreski who I love the most, and I was like, “Brad, if you were gonna be with a girl, who would you be with?” He said Scarlett Johansson, and I stopped for a minute and was like, “Oh my god, I think me too!” Also, Penélope Cruz, but I’ve been told that she kind of looks like me, so I don’t know what that says about me – that I’m narcissistic?!
You recently revealed you watch old episodes of Glee, and I think that surprised some people.
Yeah, I think that everyone is so shocked when I say that.
Are you shocked by people being shocked?
Yeah, yeah, I’m shocked at people being shocked. I’m so proud of the work that we did. And I get that some people would be embarrassed to watch their own material. I understand that. But sometimes it’s so fun. I’ll be like, “Remember when we did that number?” I think I watch it more because I can’t believe that we did it. It’s just to remind myself, “You did that. You did that! And that’s incredible. And you should be proud of it.” It’s sort of inspiring for me.
What episode of Glee have you revisited the most?
Probably the one when we went to New York in Season 2. That’s one of my most favorite episodes, and it was personally such a special episode for me because I had just left New York a year prior, and the next thing you know I was coming back one year later with this hugely successful show being followed by, I think, close to, like, 200 fans and paparazzi. So, for me, it was crazy to be in these places that I’d walked through hundreds of time in my life, but now in such a different way. So, that was such a pivotal episode for me.
Apparently, you and your co-star Naya Rivera were feuding on the show, according to her memoir. Do you have trouble watching episodes with you two in them?
(Laughs) Actually, I think we should – I don’t like to talk about that. There are so many more fun things to talk about.
Do you listen to the Glee music?
I listen to the music all the time. Actually, I was just listening to me and Naya do “Brave” – that awesome Sara Bareilles song – the other day. That song is so good. I remember that day like it was yesterday because we were so tired, but it’s funny, when I do my concerts I sing songs from Glee and I talk about what it was like in those moments and behind the scenes. That’s my opportunity to get really close with people.
Which songs from Glee are your favorite to perform live?
I love singing “My Man,” and I think I’m actually gonna include “Poker Face” soon, so I’m excited about that.
Going back to Brad, you shared a bed with him during your “Bed Series” on your Instagram.
Oh yeah!
How does it feel to steal the man of our dreams?
I mean, Brad is so friggin’ hot. I mean, do you see those pictures he posts on Instagram? My comment on one of them the other day was, like, “When you’re ready for a girl, let’s do this ’cause you’re so hot.” There was actually a rumor in the Enquirer the other day that I was going to have Brad’s baby, which I think is such an honor because he’s the best and he’s so handsome, but so kind too. I love that when I asked him to do the “Bed Series” with me he was like, “Yeah, sure, of course.”
Inquiring minds want to know: What does Brad smell like?
Like a shower after boot camp. Fresh, but still a little sweaty too.
Are you getting more attention from the ladies with your sexy “Bed Series” pics?
I’m not getting enough attention from the ladies, let me say that. I mean, what does a girl need to do?
I mean, yeah, you’ve taken your pants off, for God’s sake.
For God’s sake, come on! I need to think of someone else to do the “Bed Series” with me. I’m probably gonna do one with Jonathan soon. I’m always thinking of who I can get in bed with me next.